Year 2011

When I just think about 2011, I will always think of the worse year of my life. Yet, I still see blessings that come from this year.

Starting in January, we found out we were pregnant with our first little child! Mark was student teaching and I was just having fun taking classes. We had our trials then (now they are nothing) but for the most part life was great!

In April, we graduated from college together in education, and may add debt free! We were very blessed and I do recognize the many blessing we have received. Then following graduation we went to Washington for a job working with our family! We were doing great and life was moving on; we were ready for life change. Very EXCITED!

Then in August, we had our daughter Carly and then is when the worst life changed happened to us. She came and she went! Now she is waiting for us! And we have empty arms! I was reflecting on the year, and trying to look for blessing that have been ours. At times, it is hard to find blessings (of course those are the times when I am in my pity party). But I realize that having the gospel, for one, is one of the biggest blessings of my life! Even, though I look at babies and long so bad for mine. I am just grateful I know I will be with her again! I get very impatient! This year has been, and I hope to be, the toughest year ever! I am also grateful for my handsome, loving husband who is there right by my side through thick and thin. At moments, that all I felt I had was him and my Heavenly Father. I am also grateful for wonderful family and friends who give their love so freely. There are many things that I am blessed with and I need to remember these things when I think of 2011. But sometimes... a lot of the time there is just one moment that comes to my mind. It is a blessing I have her forever, but right now I am longing her to be with me!

I know if I can keep looking for my blessings, my days can be brighter! I hope 2012 will be a little kinder to me!